My friend Jessamyn is losing weight like crazy and she has the motivation and determination that I want and for whatever reason, I can't find it. I make excuses on why I can't do this or that or why I could never do that. (that is why I am still fat) and then I get down, depressed, hate myself, etc.
Ever since I started trying different clothes at the clothing stores and having serious mental break downs I think that is where I left my self worth. I figure to myself, if I can't look good now, I will never look good. I don't know where my attitude came from and I wish that I could LOSE that and BRING BACK my motivation. It pretty much kills me whenever my husband picks out these sexy little numbers to go out in and either A) It doesn't fit. B) It fits, but I look like a sausage...In other words..Just because it fits doesn't mean you should wear it!
I never actually listened to a song that was recommended to me before, so I listened to it today, and it made me cry a little. Haha. :) I'm sure that most of you have heard it before. I never had.
"Fuckin' Perfect"
Made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good'
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I'm still around
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're so mean when you talk
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead.
So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
(ohh ohhhhhhh)
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line and we try try try but we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do I do that)?
Pretty, pretty, pretty
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing than you're fucking perfect to me
(you're perfect, you're perfect)
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
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