Sunday, June 26, 2011

Scavenger Hunt Love my Husband.

So,with the permission of my husband, I am going to post my scavenger hunt because I thought this was the most thoughtful & romantic thing that anyone has ever done for me in my life.

J hands me a note that reads: " Since the beginning of us I have loved you true. Go back to the room where love began with me and you."

( I found the second clue in our old bedroom, which is now Alexanders room.)

2nd clue: " From this room our love grew, I was lost till I found you. Something else began to grow with our family as you know. This little thing now grows slow."

( 3rd clue was on our magnolia tree which we planted last year as our family tree)

3rd Clue: "We fell hard for one another. We live for all of life to discover. Our love for our babies knows no limits. For this little thing we bought for them once made them timid."

(4th clue was found on our swing set)

4th Clue: " 2 little boys who you didnt have 2 love now play here and call you mommy. Go find these 2 and tickle there tummy with them lies your next clue and remember they will always love you."

I walked into the living room and the boys said "Thank you" to me and handed me presents. One was two charms for my bracelet that are Miley & Aidens birth stones, A picture frame that says " Mothers are angels with invisible wings..." and a card signed by Joey and Dylan (Note: The other 3 kids are at their Dads so that's why they didn't participate J would've incorporated them if they were home!) The card had a woman dressed up as a super hero (by the way, by this time I was bawling my eyes out) Have I told you that you are my hero?  and on the inside it says but in a non-cape, non-tights kind of way. We love you Mommy signed Joseph and Dylan.

My next clue was in here that read: " From here out I was positive you were my soul mate. Take this little gift and you dont have to go far. Your next little clue is in the car.

Car clue: "Without you it's hard to breathe with my vows to you I can never leave. I need you now as much as then now its time you come to find me and this pen."

So I walk in the door and my husband is smiling the best smile I have ever saw him smile...and hands me another card (which also made me cry very very hard) and it read:

Trying to describe
My love for you
is like trying to capture the universe
in the palm of your hand.
It can not be done...
Because my love, like the universe
is vast and without end.
When we're apart, I ache for you
counting the endless minutes
until our lips will meet once more,
and the passion that burns within us,
smoldering always,
will ignite and set the night on fire.

The inside read:  You fill me up in every possible way... and the pleasure we share is beyond anything I ever imagined. The day I first laid eyes on you was more than simply a dream come true; it was the day heaven came to earth and stayed.....Always yours Nicole. I love you most. John.

So trying to catch my breath I thought I was done...But there was one more clue inside of the card. "It said At long last you found your way to me. I am your husband and always will be. Come now and have a glass of wine enjoy all the peace and love you may find."

On the table was a glass of wine and a peace and love necklace from the open heart collection from Kay Jewelers that I had been wanting for a REALLY long time. So of course, once more, I continue to sob and hug my husband.

This has been one of the best days of my life, my love, and I am so happy you are in my life. I will never forget this day. I will shout to the world my love for you. I love you John. Always and forever.

Saturday, June 18, 2011


I have been sitting here for about 20 minutes trying to figure out what I was going to write about my Husband. I have so many thoughts going through my head, and I have already written a few things about us in previous blogs so I do not want to sound repetitive.I just really want my blog to be the "perfect" Fathers Day blog. But as I sat here and thought more and more about what I felt I needed to write, I just figured that I would jot down all of the things that pop into my head.

To my wonderful Husband, John:

I will never forget the first day I had my eyes opened to what kind of man & Father you really were. It was Joey's 3rd birthday (2009) and you & I had just started to speak to each other and become friends. I know... I and I had known each other since 2007 but I never really got to know you. I never got to have an opinion of my own about you. So anyway, when you had spent all of your money on Joeys birthday present [a Lightening McQueen Car that Joseph could ride in] and when he opened it and he had the most priceless and exciting reaction ever...You had tears and your eyes and your smile could have probably lit up the room. At that very moment I knew that you were one of the most best, proud, Dads ever. At that very moment I had regretted any comments and hurtful things I had ever said to you. I knew that I was wrong and I knew everyone else who said anything terrible about you was wrong as well.

Another moment that I had realized that you were amazing, is when you opened up your pocket to help me with my children. I had not a dime when I had left Patrick & I had no way of getting diapers or anything of the sorts. You would not take no for an answer and you told me that you would help me take care of my babies the best that you could. These children were not even close to being your responsibility and I knew that you had your own two children living with you that you had to support, I could not believe that you would even consider.

As these almost two years are up that we have been together, you have shown me in so many other ways what kind of man you are. You put the children before yourself and that is something I admire. You have always opened yourself up to suggestion when it comes to taking care of them, to know what to do, to be the best you can be. You have worked hard to become a better person and Father & you have succeeded in doing so. There are no more favorites in this home, you do not treat anyone any better than the other. You treat everyone equally as it should be.

Thank you so much. For not only trying to be better but BEING better. For never being selfish. For always being so loving. For tucking the children at night with me. For never making me do anything alone. Just thank you for being you, my husband, one of the best men I have ever known.

Monday, June 13, 2011

The Casey Anthony trial.

 Since this case came out I did not pay very much attention to what was going on with it. But these past few weeks I have found myself obsessing over what was going on with it. I have been reading what is going on, watching the case daily, and also I have been looking at past videos on youtube from when this case first came out. I have my very own opinions on this case and I will have everyone know that my opinions are obviously not facts..SO please take that into consideration.

While seeing the IM's between her & her 'boyfriend' it made me see that she regretted the fact that she even had her daughter. She was always trying to think of different ways that she could get rid of her.(as far as getting a babysitter) By the way she spoke about her life she felt caged.A little girl she always referred to in her IM's as "the kid" and "little snot head." To me that does not show that she was a loving Mother. All of the photographs that she had with her daughter were all fake in my opinion. It was a photo opportunity for Casey. They were not genuine by any means. A loving Mother may joke and say things like "Little monkey" or "my brat" or something along those lines...But "The kid" and "snot head" seems pretty cold hearted to me.

My question is: If the Nanny was not real it makes me wonder who really took Caylee when she said that she was with the Nanny? In the conversations she spoke of how she was going to drop the daughter off to the Nanny? But I guess it never spoke of how she actually DID go to the boy friends house so I guess that information we would never know. We all know that the Nanny was not real. The stories that she told of the Nanny were 100% made up on the spot. We all know by now that all these insane lies that Casey Anthony has told her family & Police, show that she is a pathological liar. A pretty good liar, but not a smart one.

It is what it is; Casey Anthony is a liar. She lied about her job, her friends, and the fact that Caylee was even alive. She sent her family and police on a wild goose chase looking for a little girl that wasn't even alive. What I don't understand, in this whole situation is how can one possibly believe that this little girl drowned in a pool in her parents back yard? While everything else is a lie? The Nanny kidnapped her. Lie. She said she told only her friends Jeff and Juliette about Caylee's disappearance. Lie. Jeff & Juiliette are not real, either. So many things are not consistant..So many things are lies. 

Why on earth should the jury believe that Caylee drowned in a pool?..Because honestly, who the hell does not call 911 when their child is floating dead in a pool? and who the HELL goes out to party after said daughter went "missing" AKA  was murdered? It's apparent that she was murdered. She had duct tape wrapped around her with a heart sticker. To me the heart sticker shows some kind of sick compassion...Like, I loved you...But not enough to keep you alive..Sorry......

Now the question is: Did Casey do it alone. Did Casey Anthony single handedly kill her daughter and let her rot in a trunk? Then put her body in a wooded area only a few minutes away from the Anthony home? Evidence states that for one, that there was a horrible smell coming from the trunk of the car. Not to mention that the flies found in the car showed that she could have been stored in the trunk for 3-5 days. The defense is trying to make it seem like garbage could have been in the trunk of her car...But why would they find hair, smell, and flies? Trash does not smell like a dead body. Fish and other dead animals, sure. But why are you carrying dead ANYTHING in your car for 3 to 5 days? If Casey had been assisted by her Father like so many people think she has been, from his previous profession, I think he would definitely not have been as sloppy as Casey had been. Casey is an ammature killer to say the least.

Point: I think Casey killed her daughter on purpose. Probably in one of her little fits that she shows us she has almost every day in court. I used to maybe think it was an accident but after all of the lies & evidence going against her I definitley think that she killed her daughter. She wanted a life and she thought killing her daughter would do it. At least she got two thing out of this: Out of all the men and women in the world that kill their poor children every single day because they are selfish & sick people...She's getting all the attention she could ever ask for & her freedom away from her daughter. I hope she is happy with herself. I hope that one day she admitts to what happens. But we all know that will probably never happen.

 A sad but true fact I had found on a website:
.In the United States, 189 woman currently await execution on death row for murdering their own children. 

May these children rest in peace & may all of you Mothers out there who do not want their children: There are many families out there hoping and praying for a child to care and love for. Give them to them. & for all of the Mothers & Fathers out there hold your children tight and Thank God every single day that you have them & that they are alive.